I have school in the next day, and I think I barely can wake up.

I've been thinking a lot a lot recently.

Why? Why do I being such a failure ever since I finished my probation.

And I always blame on others, I never think of myself.

I miss all my friends. I miss all of them being around me, no matter what happens.

And I ruined it myself, I destroy my friendships. I destroy my relationships.

Just because of my stupid mindset. I always thought I know everything. I know what's wrong

and what's not. But in fact, tonight I finally realize.

Is because of my attitude. I do things by myself, I do it by how I think.

I never think of others. I always thought what I think was right for them.

I'm selfish. I'm mean. I'm simply a bastard.

And yeah, I don't expect anything else anymore. From this moment onward.

Because I truly know that I don't deserve it at all.

Reason why I'm posting this, is because I have no one to share my thoughts with anymore.

I miss Potato. I miss Alien. I miss Moon. I miss Pink Panther. I miss Microphone. I miss Panda.

I miss Fatty. I miss Hen. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

But that only can said in my mind. Because I know it myself, that all of these is already past.

I would really start to learn how not to rely on others. I will start to learn how to be independent.

Learn how to be like a dog. Not how they are. But who they are.

Dog love their owners unconditionally. No matter how they looks, how they actually react to them. I should love everyone now. And cherish the moment now. Next seconds, you might be just nothing in this pathetic world.

That's it. Learn to grow up, learn to be responsible. Friends? I don't deserve.

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